They Call Me Junebug

3 Reasons in 2 words or less

why I never want to relive the past 5 days.

1 - Stomach Flu
2 - Brain Tumor
3 - See above

The trip North to see the in-laws was fun, except for a run-in with some sort of nasty stomach bug, which refuses to relinquish me from it's clutches. Nothing like running to the shared bathroom at work every 10 minutes.

Yesterday I found out that my father has a brain tumor. At 49 years old, he's suddenly facing a whole new life.

Needless to say I've been pre-occupied and haven't really felt like writing. Plus work has been crazy, for the time I've actually been here. I was out sick Monday, here part of the day yesterday till I got the news about my father, and today it feels like the whole world is crushing down on me as I sit here at my desk.

I've had to smile my way through a work lunch, am preparing to sit through 2 meetings, and run around doing last minute organizing for a training session for 15 people tomorrow. Tomorrow I have to meet with software reps, sit through a training, and tackle all of the projects accumulating on my desk. All while keeping a smile plastered on my face and the tears out of my eyes.

I hate that I'm an "emotional" woman, there are few things more humiliating than sitting at your desk bawling and having the entire office stare at you and whisper. There are moments when I'm staring glassy eyed at my computer screen, and tears just begin running down my face, there's nothing I can do about it. If you ever want to see an engineer look very scared, just start crying, it works every time.

That's all I can say, I haven't got anything else inside that resembles human speech.

Junebug

posted by The Call Me Junebug @ 11:19 AM